It’s truly crazy how much change I’ve been through this year. I started it off super optimistic and feeling like I could conquer the world. I even made a video of myself singing “Rise” by Katy Perry as my sort of theme song for the year.
Then I spent the majority of the year dealing with depression/a lot of negative feelings. Some may think I bring this up as a negative thing/criticism of myself. And in my more negative moments, I may think of it this way (i.e. “I failed in my goal. I didn’t crush this year, I went backwards. I spent most of my time sitting around.”).
But if I’ve learned anything from 2018, it’s that feeling every emotion and processing it is the single most important action you can take to really know yourself and love yourself and be okay with this thing called life. And it may outwardly look like sitting around, but inwardly it looks like a LOT OF FREAKING WORK.
Much of my outlook has changed, and one of the things that I want to let you know immediately is this:
I will no longer be trying to market myself as a life coach or health coach, or any other coach of any kind.
I whole-heartedly appreciate those people who have come into my life who hold these titles, but I am not a professional in the field of psychology, nor truly the field of fitness/nutrition, so I will NOT take people’s money anymore in those fields. If any of my previous posts/content came across as condescending and/or like I knew what I was talking about professionally, I sincerely and deeply apologize.
I am still INSANELY interested in the fields of psychology, health and fitness, and philosophy, and so I will continue to share my thoughts about those topics. But I’m not doing it with the ulterior motive of getting customers/clients anymore.
You should know, too, that I have always had great intentions and I don’t apologize for/regret the work and time I spent on my content/free resources. This is simply an acknowledgment that I am not a professional in any of these fields and THEREFORE YOU SHOULD NOT PAY ME MONEY.
I know that at least a few of you have really appreciated my content and I really appreciate YOU for that.
This isn’t me saying, “All my past stuff sucked, so disregard it.” I put out some really good stuff. The ONLY problem with it was that I proffered it as blanket advice (with the hope that people would hopefully pay me for more in depth advice) and I’ve learned a lot this year about how that doesn’t work in either the field of psychology or the field of fitness/nutrition.
Every person is so different, and there is no one-size-fits-all approach.
Yes, there are general rules of thumb, yes there are methodologies that work for “most” people, but I am not a professional trained to apply any of these things.
So basically, this is my point: feel free to enjoy my past (and future) content, for free, no strings attached, as my contribution to the internet and expression of my heart/soul. Know that I give it away, not as a marketing tactic, but just because I have things to say. And take it with a grain of salt, since it may or may not apply to you.
Also, find and talk to professionals!
You know your body/mind better than anyone else, AND it can really help to seek out the help of a professional to work with you to get you to your version of health. Therapy has been a big help to me this year. Therapy from licensed, professional people. And advice from actual doctors. Etc.
Moving forward I plan to use my platform as somewhere to share my writing and musical talents: i.e. things that I actually do have proficiency in.
I am a REALLY talented person, and I like me. So all I’m doing here is just shifting my efforts away from trying to run a business and towards giving my contribution to the world in the things I love. That may be disappointing to some or some may feel that I’m “giving up”, but I don’t care.
That’s another thing I’ve spent most of 2018 doing–caring what other people will think of me (even though much of my content might have convinced you otherwise)–and it’s quite tiresome, so I’m trying to quit doing it.
I love you all and thank you for being part of my journey. I am grateful for ALL my learning experiences, and doing this blog has been a big one. There are great things ahead for me, as there have always been, and I am excited to share it with you 🙂
I DID rise this year, just not in the ways I was expecting. You probably did too.
Have an AMAZING 2019!